Blind Love 63

I'm so sorry guys, i'm feeling a bit under the weather :( as soon as i feel better I'll post an extra long post :(

i just managed to read all the comments from the previous post, I'll make it up to you guys enshaalaa ;*

This one goes out to Dee Dee ;* 

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LULU:

i kept quiet...i must have heard wrong...it took all the courage in me to reply...

“na3am?”

“a7bich o sharyeech, o hal kelma mu sahla agoolha”

“3bdala lo sama7t” it felt...Wrong...it just felt wrong but...

“adrii walla adrii mu wagta agool hal 7achi bas hatha el9ij o abeelich el5air”

“madri shagool”

“mabeech itgooleen shay, wala eni mtwag3 itgooleen shay, mara7 yt‘3ayar shay baina laken ba‘6el a7bich, o abeech bas hal marra t7awleen, etha nj7at hal tajroba 5air o brka o etha manj7at malla katb o mntai nag9a shay...o ham ra7 akoon mawjood bkl el7altain”

his hands still on top of mine...For the first time in my life...

i understood the meaning behind “taking my breath away” which is exactly what he just did...

i don’t really know how to describe it but it feels...incredibly dangerous and risky but at the same time so safe and secure.

“ha shtgooleen? *chuckle*”

i smiled softly and nodded...

“eee! 5alich chithy! latrdidain marthainya *chuckle*”

he was right...in the end, this is For ME and me alone. i have nothing to lose...

except...maybe 3abdala... he might change his mind if this doesn’t work out, why would he stay with me if i’ll always be blind...constantly taking care of me...

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JINAN:

Honestly...i don’t know what’s worse...being forced to be civil with him and hearing him go on and on and on and on and on and on and ON about his life after the last time i saw him or actually starting to get immune with him being around...

i have to admit...he’s done a lot for himself but i still HATE him...

i think the feeling is mutual but i have no idea why he’s tolerating me either...

As I was going on and on in my head about all the bad things i hate about him, the things i can’t stand or tolerate, he brought up a topic so sensitive so shocking and so unexpected...I hated myself right then and there...  

“I’m actually a year behind than you and hind”

“why?....let me guess, curriculum too hard for you?...it happens with people who suffer from a low IQ”

TAKE THAT!    

“ *laugh* laaa  *chuckle* el7ageega 5athaytli sna off 3goob wafat elwaldain....alla yur7amhom, 3ashan chithy shwaya mt25er 3an baji elrab3 *smile*”

i could feel all the blood in my face drain out...

what?! shlon?! how and WHY DIDN’T HE CALL ME?!

“*gasp* 3atham alla ajerk! makena nadri” Hind spoke 

i just kept looking back at him...he kept his eyes on me then turned to hind with a sincere smile...

“ajerna o ajrich... 7adth sayara *shrugging his shoulders* gatha2 o gadar...”

so this is what a jerk feels like?...i feel like crap!

“3ashan chithy saken 3ind 5ali, martha ag3ad fil bait broo7i *side smile* o ham fta7li shgta hni”

oh god now i remember what i told him when we were in the airplane together...could things get any worse?

FLASHBACK:

on the flight heading to London:

“ay otail 7ajzeen?”

“m7na sakneen ib otail”

“ha 3ayal? shqa?”

“la2” i like how i’m slowly getting on his nerves with my answers...

“e7na ibnaskn ib shqat 5alii 9ob... ” i interrupted 

“a grown man crashing at his uncles apartment instead of staying in a hotel that just says it all..”

“*chuckle* he’s not just my uncle you know”

“does it look like i care? *he looked away while Hind gave me a look*...*muffled rumble*”

he smiled softly...

“3eeday 3eeday masma3t”

“I’m..*muffled rumble *” he squinted his eyes pretending he didn’t hear me...

“I said i’m sorry!”

“agool laish wayhich m3tfs...kil hatha 3ashan t3tathrain?”

“malik sh’3l!”

End of flash back.

I couldn't say one word to him after that....the whole time i was just...Silent. I couldn't raise my glance to his, i kept my eyes on my plate...

every once in a while i'd look up at him and his eyes would catch mine...i didn't know how to be myself anymore..well the person i usually am when i'm around him...

all i feel now towards Jassim is sadness and sorrow.

next thing i knew his hand grabbed mine and i jilted up right, taken off by his sudden approach...

he leaned forward towards me, while hind and 6alal stood watch....