Blind Love 62

LULU:

“Joury?!”

“la7tha la7thaa...hach lulu kalmeeha” he handed the phone over to me

“JOURY?!”

“BABY!”

“you knew?!!!”

“of course i knew, i know everything *evil laugh*”

“wait wait where’s *whispering* saif? and you know?!!!”

“oh they’ll be here any second!! bas i needed to check on you, how are you holding up?”

“i’m hanging in there, still coming tomorrow?”

“ee, I’ll be right by your side when the results come out, i’m really proud of you lulu, oh!! you won’t believe who i ran into today!!!”

“who?!!!”

“Lulu elnurse na6rtich”

“fares! As in FARES!”

“i have to go but OH MY GOD! bye bye!!”

i could hear her laugh as i gave back the phone to whoever grabbed it, i hope it was 9ali7 ;S

it feels so surreal, I kept reminding myself to calm down and not be so optimistic. 

it’s always the same and this is no exception...i’m blind and i’ll always be blind.

the nurse got me to do several tests and i kept panicking inside, everything was racing, especially my weak heart...as if i was screaming silently but no one notices. 

20 minutes later...

i can’t, i can’t do this! have i completely lost my mind?!!

this is just like all the rest, what makes this any different?!

I’M PERMANENTLY BLIND! 

I’M BLIND AND I’LL ALWAYS BE BLIND!

and do i need more pity from 3bdalla and everyone when this too fails??!! especially NOT 3abdalla!!

why should they get their hopes high as well?

why am i even considering this?!!!

i was in deep thought when i got interrupted from my semi- melt down in my head

“lulu? *concern voice*”

“3bdala?!”

“*chuckle* shfeech e5tra3tay?”

“3bdala mabeek tz3al bas wala ma...”

“lulu e7na weyach”

“magdar! 3bdala mashkoor 3ala kelshay bas magdar”

“lulu!*anger*”

honestly it’s the first time i hear anger in his voice... and just like that waterworks came rushing by...

“I can’t and won’t do this..I want to go home now” i could feel his hands over mine again...

“shfeekom? ha? Lulu shfeeech!?!!”

“9ali7 alla e5aleek mabi aswii shay abi ard lkuwait”

“9ali7 abi akalmha etha sma7t t5aleena”

i started to panic, i knew i was crying but the way he asked my brother to leave us alone was...different. 

“lulu...3abalich ma a5af 3alaich?”

“3bdala mu ga9dy”

“sm3eenii..lulu entai ‘3air...”

‘3air? what does he mean by ‘3air?! 

“mara7 a5leech itsaween shay etha fakart ena by‘6rich, ba3dain maison mu ay wa7d..."

“3bdala mabi amr bnafs eltajroba 5ala9, 5alni b7ali”

“magdar! magdar ashoofich chithy o adri ena beedi shay o eni agdar asa3dich o bla5eer a5leech”

“laish?! bas 3bdala mashkoor wala mag9art bas ana rathya!”

“lulu...*deep breathe* tathqeen feeni?”

“akeed bas”

“bdoon bas”

“3abdala!”

“lulu!....*sigh* a7bich"

and just like that i was left speechless...

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JOURY:

As soon as i got home i got dressed and ready, they should be here any minute now...

i kept readjusting everything, from my dress to the perfection of my eyeliner...

i couldn't help but think of Fares...seeing him today.

He looks different yet still the same...

why am i even thinking of him!!

i checked the time and i realized Lulu should be done from her meet and greet with Dr.Maison so i immediately called her...

after 3 missed calls i started to panic, it's just so unlike her not to pick up!

i immediately called 9ali7!

He reassured me that she was fine and i got to talk to her for a bit...her voice was a bit unsettling but i'm pretty sure she's in good hands.

once i ended the phone call, i sat carefully on my couch...I was even dreading having a crease on my sky blue dress!

I just can't wait to see my baby!

The door bell rang and I FLEW down the flight of stairs...my own mother gave me a look, now that's just embarrassing...

"5alich 3agla" she managed to say before opening the doors..

i couldn't help but smile idiotically..

i was hiding in a separate room waiting to be "called" out.

i kept checking on my hair and lipstick like a maniac.

Then came the big moment where i hear my mothers call.

it's just saif, it's just Saif i kept repeating...

I walked out from around the corner to see all three standing up waiting for me...

My eyes immediately landed on one handsome Saif.

Smiling and showing off his pearly whites.  He looked so put together wearing a crispy white DishDasha...

He looks so....*sigh*....

I walked towards my mother and went near his mother who had a warm smile and kind eyes...

i now know where he gets that smile that makes me weak in the knees and that look that instantly makes me feel like i'm the safest girl in the world.

I kissed her as pleasantries were exchanged and i could feeeeeeeeeeeeel Saif starring at me.

I then "PRETENDED" like it was the first time i ever see him.

he had a smirk on his face...and i KNEW what he was saying behind those eyes...

I could feel like he wanted to laugh out loud at my "Acting" skills and i wanted to do the same towards his...

So after we exchanged pleasantries i turned around to go back to my mother when she head bobs me to sit next to him...

Honestly...i'd prefer if she says it out loud that way his mother would think i was "being forced" to sit next to him...but oh well...

he scooted over for me to sit.

I could help but notice HE WAS BLUSHING!

Every time i look up to see him, he'd look away trying so hard to hide his gorgeous smile..

"Shlonich Joury?"

i could just melt right then and there...all my doubts, all my questions went away just like that...

"el7mdela, ent shlonik?"

"b5air damich b5air"

I talked with his mother about my studies, where i'd like to work, how college life was treating me...

i then had a "get to know" convo with saif

"elmshkla madrii shs2lich, kelshay a3rfa" he teased softly

i giggled as i replied

"wala ana *giggle*"

we kept looking back at our mothers as they gave us a corner of the eye look with a smirk.