LULU:
“9aba7 elkhair”
“9aba7 elnooor”
“ha shmshtahya ryooq?”
he asked considerately as i answered reluctantly...
really feel uncomfortable when someone is doing something for me...some people might actually call it pride some call it being shy others might even say being considerate to others..i honestly can’t differentiate... all i knew is it felt warm having him around but yet it was like the weight of the world is on my shoulders again...
it felt a bit awkward, i had a hard time sleeping yesterday since i kept replaying the words he said to me...
i still can’t believe that he...he loves me...or is it likes me?
i mean it just felt wrong but soo right... if this is what love is, then love is blinder than i am!
9ali7 left to get Joury from the airport while i had breakfast with 3abdala...
i heard him clearing his throat..
“Lulu abii a7acheech bmawthoo3...elmawthoo3 eli kalamtich fee ams...” he added a bit tensed...
oh ok...i bet he’s taking back what he said...it probably wasn’t true...why would it any way...
my heart sunk as i waited for his plunging words to hit against me...and my heart.
“lulu?”
“emm kaml ga3d asm3k”
“ana ba3t’thr mnch, el9ara7a makent abi agoolich hal kelma bhal 6areeqa, ya3ni kent 7a6 eb bali akalm 9ali7 bl awal o ashawrich ba3dha...o twaga3t eni b9ar7ich ib hal mwathoo3 ash’hr jdam, makent abi afaj2ich ib hal mawthoo3”
“ay kelma?”
he kept a bit quiet... ok he definitely doesn’t like me..
“*clearing throat* enii a7bich,”
“3abdala”
“sm3eeni, adri ena mahi 3adla, bas ham abeech t3arfeen o t2kdain ena mara7 yt‘3ayar shay baini o bainich, o baini o bain 9ali7 lo shno e9eer....*chuckle* ams ga3d bas afakr bli gelta lich o g3adt a7atii etha t7seen eni ‘6a‘3a6tch, 9adgeeeni makent nawi asabib lich ham”
I honestly don’t know what to say...i was just silent...
I love him..well i think it’s love..
all i know is that he makes me happy, i feel whole around him....
“lulu?” he asked carefully...i could tell he was nervous...
what am i suppose to say...
yes i care for him...but i want what’s best for him...
am i what’s best for him?
do i want him to end up with someone like me?
the only thing that saved me was hearing my best friend yell out my name from a distant...
“LUUUULUUUUUU!!!”
all i felt was Joy and relief...
i was scared...i am scared of how things might turn out...
I don’t really know how to talk to him the way i used to, now that i know that...
it just i never thought anyone would ever see me that way...
who would want someone with a...disability?
a “damaged” person as Dr.maison put it...
“JOURY!”
she pulled me in for a bear hug which sorta cut of my blood circulation but i did miss her these couple of days, she exchanged pleasantries with 3bdala before dragging me with her to a room...
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Hind:
So Jinan took me to the coffee shop across the street from the hospital just so my nervous would ease up a bit before we went to see the old guy whom she thinks holds the answers to my problem...
i don’t know why i’m picturing him BLUE and living in a lamp, offering me wishes and granting them right then and there...
ya3ni shbsawilii? bkl 9ara7a...
sometimes i feel Jinan is way over her head on this...
I can’t have him know such a private matter...He is a stranger after all!
“sm3eeni jinan”
“call me bubbles lo sama7tay *raised fingers*”
“bdaina?!” she saw how serious i was...
“yes! and you need to breathe!” it scares me sometimes when she does that! she know’s exactly how and what i feel!
“a39abii” i couldn’t even continue my sentence, i choked up.
“sm3eeni He CAN’T know that this is about me!, i need him to think it’s about someone else, or we come up with a story similar that doesn’t include marriage in it at all...madri the point is, I have a perfect life and i am happy vacationing with my best friend...fahma?!”
she nodded not wanting to upset me...
“bas you should know, he’s a person you can trust...”
and as she said that...
my eyes fell on a gorgeous man standing in line getting his drink...
wait a second! I KNOW THAT FACE! I KNOW I’VE SEEN HIM SOMEWHERE BEFORE!
NO ONE FORGETS A FACE LIKE THAT... I MEAN NO ONE!
she looked in the direction i was looking at...
“oh! sager”
“who?”
“he’s 3ami Fahad’s grandson!”
and then it hit me!....
HE’S THE GUY FROM THE RESORT!
THE ONE WHO PICKED US UP FROM THE GROUND WHEN WE FELL ROLLER SKATING!!
WHAT A SMALL WORLD!
“He’s also that guy from the resort!!! tathkreeen?!!!” i asked excited...
for some reason this actually took my mind of what was happening...
“EE!!! i know! long story short, one day”
“yes because all short stories start with one day *sarcastic*”
“chub zain o sm3ai!!!”
“ohooo kamlai kamlai”
“anyways i was heading to see 3ami fahad in his hospital room and guess who i find there instead?”
“sager?”
“E!”
“what’s so terrific about this story?”
“i hate you” i laughed out loud...
“let me finish! that’s not the weird part...”
“there’s a weird part?”
she starred at me for interrupting her...better to just shut up and let her finish...
“anyways he looked at me and i still remember it so well, he looked at me with shock and anger and here is what i’m not sure about but he called me by my name without me ever mentioning it!”
“*giggle* ok for the shocked and anger look, he probably was pissed that a certain someone is disturbing their grandfather! or that someone barged in or whatever...that’s explainable...the name part you said it yourself your not sure.. ymkn his grandfather could’ve mentioned you to him mn gabl”
“yeah that makes sense...bas i’m NOT disturbing 3ami fahad *pout* he likes my company”
As i looked at him again..honestly it’s hard not to...he turned around to face me...
i have no idea why i felt like i just got caught stealing cookies...
the way he saw me was weird...he quickly scanned who was with me...as soon as his eyes landed on jinan they just stayed there...
it’s times like these where i envy jinan -_- seriously that was just painful...
