Monday, October 15, 2012

Blind Love 67


LULU:



“9aba7 elkhair” 


“9aba7 elnooor”


“ha shmshtahya ryooq?”

he asked considerately as i answered reluctantly...


really feel uncomfortable when someone is doing something for me...some people might actually call it pride some call it being shy others might even say being considerate to others..i honestly can’t differentiate... all i knew is it felt warm having him around but yet it was like the weight of the world is on my shoulders again...


it felt a bit awkward, i had a hard time sleeping yesterday since i kept replaying the words he said to me...


i still can’t believe that he...he loves me...or is it likes me?


i mean it just felt wrong but soo right... if this is what love is, then love is blinder than i am!


 9ali7 left to get Joury from the airport while i had breakfast with 3abdala...


i heard him clearing his throat..


“Lulu abii a7acheech bmawthoo3...elmawthoo3 eli kalamtich fee ams...” he added a bit tensed...


oh ok...i bet he’s taking back what he said...it probably wasn’t true...why would it any way...


my heart sunk as i waited for his plunging words to hit against me...and my heart.


“lulu?”


“emm kaml ga3d asm3k”


“ana ba3t’thr mnch, el9ara7a makent abi agoolich hal kelma bhal 6areeqa, ya3ni kent 7a6 eb bali akalm 9ali7 bl awal o ashawrich ba3dha...o twaga3t eni b9ar7ich ib hal mwathoo3 ash’hr jdam, makent abi afaj2ich ib hal mawthoo3”


“ay kelma?”


he kept a bit quiet... ok he definitely doesn’t like me..


“*clearing throat* enii a7bich,”


“3abdala”


“sm3eeni, adri ena mahi 3adla, bas ham abeech t3arfeen o t2kdain ena mara7 yt‘3ayar shay baini o bainich, o baini o bain 9ali7 lo shno e9eer....*chuckle* ams ga3d bas afakr bli gelta lich o g3adt a7atii etha t7seen eni ‘6a‘3a6tch, 9adgeeeni makent nawi asabib lich ham”


I honestly don’t know what to say...i was just silent...


I love him..well i think it’s love..


all i know is that he makes me happy, i feel whole around him....


“lulu?” he asked carefully...i could tell he was nervous...


what am i suppose to say...


yes i care for him...but i want what’s best for him... 


am i what’s best for him?


do i want him to end up with someone like me?





























































the only thing that saved me was hearing my best friend yell out my name from a distant...


“LUUUULUUUUUU!!!”


all i felt was Joy and relief...


i was scared...i am scared of how things might turn out...


I don’t really know how to talk to him the way i used to, now that i know that...


it just i never thought anyone would ever see me that way...


who would want someone with a...disability?


a “damaged” person as Dr.maison put it...


“JOURY!” 


she pulled me in for a bear hug which sorta cut of my blood circulation but i did miss her these couple of days, she exchanged pleasantries with 3bdala before dragging me with her to a room...









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Hind:



So Jinan took me to the coffee shop across the street from the hospital just so my nervous would ease up a bit before we went to see the old guy whom she thinks holds the answers to my problem...


i don’t know why i’m picturing him BLUE and living in a lamp, offering me wishes and granting them right then and there...


ya3ni shbsawilii? bkl 9ara7a...


sometimes i feel Jinan is way over her head on this...


I can’t have him know such a private matter...He is a stranger after all!


“sm3eeni jinan”


“call me bubbles lo sama7tay *raised fingers*”


“bdaina?!” she saw how serious i was...


“yes! and you need to breathe!” it scares me sometimes when she does that! she know’s exactly how and what i feel!


“a39abii” i couldn’t even continue my sentence, i choked up.


“sm3eeni He CAN’T know that this is about me!, i need him to think it’s about someone else, or we come up with a story similar that doesn’t include marriage in it at all...madri the point is, I have a perfect life and i am happy vacationing with my best friend...fahma?!”


she nodded not wanting to upset me...


“bas you should know, he’s a person you can trust...”


and as she said that...


my eyes fell on a gorgeous man standing in line getting his drink...






















































wait a second! I KNOW THAT FACE! I KNOW I’VE SEEN HIM SOMEWHERE BEFORE!


NO ONE FORGETS A FACE LIKE THAT... I MEAN NO ONE!

she looked in the direction i was looking at...


“oh! sager”


“who?”


“he’s 3ami Fahad’s grandson!”


and then it hit me!....



































































































































HE’S THE GUY FROM THE RESORT!


THE ONE WHO PICKED US UP FROM THE GROUND WHEN WE FELL ROLLER SKATING!!


WHAT A SMALL WORLD!



“He’s also that guy from the resort!!! tathkreeen?!!!” i asked excited...


for some reason this actually took my mind of what was happening...


“EE!!! i know! long story short, one day”


“yes because all short stories start with one day *sarcastic*”


“chub zain o sm3ai!!!”


“ohooo kamlai kamlai”


“anyways i was heading to see 3ami fahad in his hospital room and  guess who i find there instead?”


“sager?”


“E!”






“what’s so terrific about this story?”















“i hate you” i laughed out loud... 



“let me finish! that’s not the weird part...”


“there’s a weird part?”


she starred at me for interrupting her...better to just shut up and let her finish...


“anyways he looked at me and i still remember it so well, he looked at me with shock and anger and here is what i’m not sure about but he called me by my name without me ever mentioning it!”


“*giggle* ok for the shocked and anger look, he probably was pissed that a certain someone is disturbing their grandfather! or that someone barged in or whatever...that’s explainable...the name part you said it yourself your not sure.. ymkn his grandfather could’ve mentioned you to him mn gabl”


“yeah that makes sense...bas i’m NOT disturbing 3ami fahad *pout* he likes my company”



As i looked at him again..honestly it’s hard not to...he turned around to face me...



i have no idea why i felt like i just got caught stealing cookies...



the way he saw me was weird...he quickly scanned who was with me...as soon as his eyes landed on jinan they just stayed there...





it’s times like these where i envy jinan -_-  seriously that was just painful...



Friday, October 5, 2012

Blind Love 66


I'm sorry it's late!!!
thought it was WEDNESDAY ;/ so here's "thursday's post"...

WARNING: short post ahead. but i'll be posting later tonight as well ;P
have a great weekend!



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HIND:


“SHSWIII?!!”


she just looked at me with a freaked out face....


“JINAAAN!”


Next thing i knew she snatch my phone threw it across the room as she yelled out 


AAAHHH” 


“THAT WONT MAKE IT GO AWAY!”


she grabbed my wrist and pulling me behind her as she ran so fast down the flight of stars to the down stars guest room...

the further we ran the less we heard the phone ringing...


“This is your plan?!!” i yelled out of breath


“well i don’t hear it! do you?”


“ya3ni magdar a76a silent?!”


she froze for a bit as she tried to find the words...


“chub” that’s all she said, i couldn’t help but laugh out loud


“it was a reflex!”


“yeah yeah”


so i looked around their guest room, honestly Jinan’s family have the best taste in design...i was in love...


“wow, when did you guys redesign?”


“ola! three years back...you seriously should have more family vaycay’s to the UK”


“try telling that to my dad...” as soon as i mentioned him...i couldn’t help but think what he was making me do..


i would never ever do that to my children, even if there father wants it that way i will  put up a fight against him so help me god..


we fell asleep in the guest room as a new day and a new plan awaits us...


Things happen for a reason, he seems like a nice guy but...i’m not ready to be in any kind of commitment right other than my commitment to myself...if that makes any sense...


i still feel like a kid, i’m not ready to handle this.






NEXT MORNING




we woke up early ready to face this issue head on.

i dragged my feet up the stairs heading to the orginal bathroom and room i was suppose to stay to get ready to head to the hospital..


As i was climbing the stairs, Jinan kept skipping up the flight of stairs with so much energy, i kind of envy that in her...she’s just herself morning to night, and she never lets anything bring her down....I don’t understand how Jassim has that power over her...If anyone knows Jinan inside out, it would be me...i can’t figure that part yet...

as i brushed my teeth..i was envious...i truly was...

Jinan had great parents, great personality, a big heart and was drop dead gorgeous...I wanted to trade lives right then and there...

she jumped into the bathroom with the biggest smile...


“you know what today is?” she asked excited


“what? *smile*” 


“it’s our FUN DAY!”


i looked at her with a short giggle...


“annnnnnd” she continoued


“IT’S OUT ATTACK AND CONQUER DAY!”


honestly isn’t she just hilarious?


“you’re really into this”


“dude, we’ve been on numerous mission since this all began!”


“yala let’s get this show on the road!”


“that’s the spirit!”


she walked out but not before adding...


“don’t you think i would be great in the army?! i would so totally be the best soldier and con rat ever!”


“GET READY!”


“ok ok!”

I walked out and pulled out my white maxi dress and a beige cardigan...pulled my hair into a ponytail, applied some make up. i honestly just wanted to feel good, and dressing up a little does that...

“HOT”

I smiled as i batted my lashes...

i looked around the room searching for my phone...

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JINAN:


i walked in the room again and saw her dressed up in a gorgeous white maxi...she looked so beautiful...


i couldn’t help but picture her as a bride... 


I had her phone with mine...


i don’t even want to start talking about my phone...


there was a time where i had no msgs and no voice messages...good times :(


all i was able to see now was stalker creep and his never ending obsession with my every move...


I learnt to ignore that in a way..i no longer see 124 msgs and 76 missed calls....


I remember someone commenting that i was a busy girl...if they only knew the truth...i have a mentally ill person who has nothing better to do in his pathetic life than to observe mine...


what caught my eye was getting a msg from someone other than stalker creep...


and unkown UK number...


i opened it and realized who it was from....



I had a good time catching up with you kid, dinner was...interesting ;P  any plans for today?

-Jassim ********



Oh HELL NOOO...TODAY I AM ON A MISSION WITH HIND AND I NEED NO DISTRACTIONS WHAT SO EVER!


I know he knows that i’m not his biggest fan...why does he have to be.... “Nice”


“YALLAAAAAAA YAL BA6AAA!”


“I CAN’T FIND MY PHONE!”


“IT’S WITH ME! YALAAA THE DRIVER IS WAITING OUTSIDE FOR US!”


And just like that...we were off to end this nightmare of hind’s once and for all!


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JOURY:

I woke up got ready and dressed for the airport, i was excited and still exhilarated from last night...


i chose to wear my favorite pair of skinny black pants and a loose oversize white shirt with a printed black and white print on the front of it. 


I couldn’t wait to talk to Lulu about everything that happened!! 


I texted Saif  a goodmorning text letting him know i boarded the plane.


I instantly got a reply from him...I couldn’t help but have a cheesy smile stuck on my face...


msg recieved from Saif
bsalama 7obi...76ai balch 3ala roo7ich, try not to miss me so much.


i laughed out loud...


msg to Saif

shouldn’t i be telling you that? ;P


and so we kept up this playful texting until they annonced that we’re about to take off. 


I turned my phone off and was mentally prepared to make the best out of today.





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9ali7 couldn’t accept what was happening, 


“of all the men...Saif?!  Joury and saif?!” he thought trying to be supportive.


it’s time to head to the airport ...


“mwa9l o 7addi mtnarfz...laish bafham laish magdar ansaha?!


even if it wasn’t me, i always wanted her to end up with a better man.  A worthy man...not HIM!” he thought getting angry..


“I know Saif , i know how he thinks and i know his history with girls...” he kept repeating in his head


“i just didn’t expect that my joury would be one of his girls...


and now...His wife?!”


9ali7 arrived at the airport...


he had dark bags under his eyes and a slight dirty beard going on..


took a deep breath and just wanted to leave all this behind him...


he wanted to let go of her.


he just wanted peace.


as the door swung open each time, his heart would jump a beat...though he’s tired,defeated and heartbroken... he was and still is in love with joury.


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JOURY:


ARRIVING in heathrow airport.

I looked out the airplane window and i just couldn’t wait to step off this plane..

I got baggage claim and headed out looking for 9ali7....the weather was just perfect... 


I kept looking but i couldn’t find him, I circled in my place until i heard his voice...


“Jour”

I turned and instantly my eyes fell on his...


I smiled but there was something off about him, the whole beard and tired eyes...yeah he’s rocking it but he just looks worn out.


“9ALI7!” i yelled excited


he chuckled as he helped me with the bags.


“el7mdela 3ala salamaa” he seemed distant


“alla esalmk”


he kept looking at me, i was lost in his eyes...what’s with him...


“shfeek? *giggle turning red*”

he cleared his throat and picked up the bags as if that didn’t just happen...


ok that was just awkward...


I got into the car and we were off...


“shlon lulu?”


“el7mdela bas wayed mtradida”


“that’s where i come in” i smiled egotistically.


he smiled softly,


“9ali7?” i added gently


“hmm?” 


“feek shay?” I could see him swallow and hold back on me...


he shook his head...


i kept starring at him, something is definitely wrong!


he looked back at me then back at the road...


“bas ta3ban shwaya”


that makes sense i guess...


“oh salamat, mn shno?”

he shrugged his shoulders as he drove into our district.


i’ve never seen him...this quiet and tired before.


most of the time i was talking whilst he was just listening...